On with the show

I was married to wife #1 for about 8 years. The reason we divorced is because i had an affair, with the freaky girl i mentioned in an earlier post. I did love my first wife and we had some fun together not to mention our 2 wonderful children.
But here is the problem, for the entire time we were married i had to hear how she did not need a man for anything. She was very independent, and that is a problem with me.
I need to be wanted for something, i need to know someone cares about me and that they need me for some reason. I dont think anyone wants to be in a relationship with someone that does not appreciate you for something, money, sex, companionship.

It is a very crappy life when you dont feel wanted or needed. I think that may explain why i am always looking for something new, someone new. I think in life we live for some type of spark or excitement. I know i do, i look forward to special days, or special events. I guess some people just live for excitement, and some like life nice and simple and dont ever want to change.

Spent sometime with a buddy of mine this weekend, i grew up in a small town and after 25 years nothing has changed. Underage people still want to drink and party and need someone to buy them booze. Of course one thing has changed, they sure drink alot more and alot harder than we did when we where at that age.
I will try to update at least 3 times a week from now on!
Twisted