Something about me

Ok so if you have been reading this blog lately you know that I am soon to be single again. That is not such a big thing. I have been having trouble at home for about 8 months are so. Things have been shitty. And now they are much better.
It is funny that when you realize that you have been unhappy, how much better things are.
You just find some nice about almost everything that happens. Your glad to get up in the morning, glad to go to work. Glad to go home knowing you don't have fight and argue and be miserable. And it seems that I am able to enjoy my girls so much more. Just happy to be alive I guess.

But I must confess something. In all the relationships I have had in the past, in all the marriages.
When they ended I always had a new one waiting in the wings. I always had someone to give me affection and maybe even direction. A new and exciting romance, something that may or may not have been tried before. I guess I alway felt like I needed someone to be whole or complete.
I guess I just thought that I could not live with out a womans charm.
This is the first relationship I have eneded all alone, and it ain't so bad! I kind of like not worrying about how someone else feels. Not worrying about what they think about the things i do or say.
I know that I still check the ladies out, the way they look or the way they dress. But a relationship is the furthest thing from my mind. Hell I have not even thought about sex! I must have really been in one shitty funk.

I don't know why I told you about all that, but I just thought i should get it off my chest. I guess I am growing up some. Hell it is about time! You would think an old fella like me would be a little smarter by now. Maybe I am.
Later
Twisted